Your daily intake

You grab my arm and tell me that you’re afraid. Scared you will urinate in public. That everyone will see it. You’ve been frightened for months and stay at home as often as you can because of this. You take precautions. Your desk at work was moved closer to the bathroom. You urinate several times before leaving the house. Wear sanitary napkins and never travel far from home. You make sure you don’t drink much and never touch alcohol. You avoid activities that involve sweating. Always know where the closest bathroom is. You touch my hand and tell me that this is all just another way of saying you miss your father. 

he scrapes under his nails with a blade then scrapes under his nails with a nail brush. lathers surgical soap to his elbows. scrubs with a different brush, five minutes thirty seconds for the right five minutes thirty seconds for the left arm. he starts scrubbing beneath his nails for the dirt that has returned. the bar of soap shrinking between his fingers. lathers surgical soap to his elbows and scrubs with a different brush, five minutes thirty seconds for the right then five minutes thirty seconds for the left arm. hot water chapping away his skin. he scrapes under his nails with a blade. scrapes under his nails with a nail brush for the dirt that has returned. his skin now the color of dusty bricks. he lathers surgical soap to his elbows scrubs with a different brush, five minutes thirty seconds for the right then five minutes thirty seconds for the left arm. washes his nails his hands his elbows his arms his skin for the dirt that has returned.