Piss Stained Trousers
when i got on the train
i went to the very first
car because
there is a small window
where you can see
straight forward
and it gives you the
slightest feeling of
vertigo
and it makes you feel
quite small and
nimble
when you watch the
walls of the subway
move past you
and if you unfocus
your eyes
it looks as if
you and the train
are stationary
and the walls are
flying past you
rapidly so
and really i suppose
it is just nice
to have something to look at
other than
the man who just got
on the train with
a beer and a cheap
cigar
who just pissed on himself
and cries softly
before he smashes
his empty beer bottle
and the baby not far
from him
and you
begins to wail
all the little sounds
i've been thinking a lot
about babies
he looked
really scared when
i told him that
no i mean,
i don't want one,
i just feel obsessed
with them right now
he still looked scared
when he
took off his t-shirt
and lifted mine,
he shoved it under
making a misshapen
lump
he looked scared still
when he laid his head
on the demented looking
mound
and said to my stomach
mon bébé, ma famille
i laid back
embarrassed and satisfied
and fantasized about
crushing all the bones in
his face
and all the little sounds
they would make
snap snap snap